#CairoForever🦋💙💙💙

Honoring the life of Cairo Desmond Brown and bringing awareness to Sudden Unexplained Death in Childhood (SUDC).

Birthday Eve

11:11

A magical number a number I see often now. Numerology has heightened since your transition. I am now going on 27 years old in the next two hours. It hurts. Just last year you were here with us. Just last year I was happy to have a new edition Chanan to the family. Just...

One Year into Grief

This is my first blog post about the day my world came crashing down. I thought I been through some shit in life. From my non-existent relationship with my mom who abuse me mentally, physically, and emotionally. To the time when I was pregnant and going through troubles in my marriage. I say nothing could…

As You Continue to Rest a Year Later

Cairo showed me a lot since he transitioned. The main thing he showed me I have the heart of a lion. Yet, I am as gentle as the butterflies he sends as reminders that he is always near. I know he would never want me to give up. Through grief, I found my purpose in…

Why I Hate Head Start

I can’t even write my review on Google too many characters but here it goes! It took me over a year to write this review. Over a year since my son Cairo Brown passed away. I have to write this review because you should always follow your gut. I used to work for 4C Head…

1.5 Years Later

I am thankful you chosen me to be your mother Even if it was only for a short period of time To mother a child who is no longer here Is another battle within itself With death I loved even harder even at times when I did not love myself

Happy Birthday Cairo

Happy Heavenly Birthday Cairo! 5 years ago on a Sunday afternoon you blessed us by coming into this world. Here we are on a Sunday which would have been your 5th birthday. You only were only able to spend 2 birthdays with us before you left this earth. We have now reached the point you…

As your Birthday Winds Down

Fun fact: Cairo would go around the house saying “Hulk smash!” Things that made me feel good today. 🦋A co-worker telling me to take all the time I need can’t think about a meeting you take the time off.🦋a student that tells me Buenos Dias in the morning during morning bus duty seeing my earrings…

Happy 6th Heavenly Birthday Cairo

5:37 am Happy Heavenly Birthday Cairo. Today you would have been 6 years old. I know you would have been so big by now. You would have been in Kindergarten. You were in the middle. Since you were three years apart from Chayce and Chanan. You were that middle ground. I often watch Chanan and…

4 Years Later

Hey, Cairo or should I say hey to those who will read this. Today marks four years since you have been gone. This past year mommy has not been doing her best at all. Honestly, I do feel since you passed away I have not been doing my best. My lack of boundaries, self-worth, self-love,…

Happy 7th Heavenly Birthday Cairo

Cairo’s 3rd birthday, I did a paw patrol theme. His 4th birthday was a Power Ranger Ninja Steel theme. His 5th birthday Lego Ninjago theme. His 6th birthday Hulk theme. His now, what would have been his 7th birthday we did PJ Mask his favorite was Geico. Hence the assumption his favorite color is green…

Ascension (5 Years Later)

It would be unrealistic to say I will always be motivational, inspiring, and strong with positive words to uplift. The other side to this journey is showing the real, raw, vulnerable, what would be deem as “negative,”or “too sad.” It is the other side of the uncomfortable feeling that shows true resilience in face of the darkest storm you will come across…grief.